The Beauty That Is // Not Knowing

There are three things we, in the Western World, tend to value. They are: 1.) safety 2.) comfort and 3.) security. Abraham [no, not Lincoln] is a man I have been look up to more and more each day. He wasn’t tied down by safety, comfort, or security. Genesis 12 reads: “Now the Lord said to Abram, ‘Go from your country and your kindred and your father’s house to the land that I will show you. And I will make of you a great nation, and I will bless you and make your name great, so that you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and him who dishonors you I will curse, and in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.”

Verse four says, “So Abram went, as the Lord had told him…” WHAT. Abe, you be cray cray. WHY? You are leaving 1.) the safety 2.) the comfort and 3.) the security.

But ol’ Abe was in the Lord’s will and he had the Father’s promises to hold fast to. The Almighty promise that he would show Abe land and that he would build him into a great nation, and make his name great SO THAT he would have the ability to bless others.

I love asking the Lord to give me characteristics of the people in the Bible. Since the beginning of this year I have been praying that the Father would be give me faith like Abraham. I know, however, that he does not just give me faith like Abraham, there is a process involved and sometimes this process is a difficult one.

I have been a resident assistant [RA] in Beckett East, a dorm for freshman women, for the past two years. Working in Beckett is probably one of my favorite things in the world. I love working with these freshman women and seeing their lives transformed throughout their first year of college. However, during the first week in January I felt the Lord calling me to resign this thing I hold so dear to my heart. Ever since then, I have been clinging to these hymn lines by Charlotte Elliot:

If Thou shouldst call me to resign

What most I prize, it ne’er was mine,

I only yield Thee what was Thine:

Thy will be done!

The day before RA hiring letters came out, I sat in our campus prayer chapel reading again of Abraham. Genesis 22 talks about the Lord calling Abraham to sacrifice Isaac. First of all, God says, “Take your son, your only son Isaac, WHOM YOU LOVE…” God knew how much Abraham cared for his son. You could say Isaac was Abe’s most prized possession. So Abraham goes with his son. In verse five Abraham tells the men they are traveling with, “Stay here with the donkey; I and the boy will go over there and WORSHIP and come again to you.” Abraham knew he was going to go and sacrifice his son but he chose to see this sacrifice as an act of worship.

As I sat there, thinking about me sacrificing my RA position to Lord I recognized I hadn’t done it as an act of worship. I had done it because he told me to and I knew it was the right thing. Luckily, it is never too late to change your heart. So once again, I gave it over to the Lord and laid it on the altar.

The next day I opened a letter stating that I had been hired as an RA in the Townhouses, working with juniors and seniors. While working in the Townhouses will bring completely new experiences and challenges, I am excited to see what work I will be joining the Lord in.

So here is to embracing the journey and the beauty that is: not knowing.

Until Next Time,



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